Conquering my FEAR!!!!

OK so I'm so happy I could, well never mind what I could do:) Today I conquered a fear I've had for, oh probably 3 years. I rode the BLACK horse....You see this horse has thrown both my Jeffie and my brother Steve... And hurt them both pretty bad, not just a dump... But somehow I knew this was my horse, he was from the day he came home with us from the stockshow in 2007. I have seen this horse in a full out buck with my brother on him, and when I said "your OK Shotzy" the horse totally stood still...That's when I first knew I would be able to ride this horse cause he listens to my voice, something those big bad cowboys don't do is Talk to their horse... Anyway's I have fed him everyday and taught him great ground manners and he is so sweet on the ground, BUT I had this huge fear of him because of what I had seen him do. Last year my cousin Terry, who is in my opion one of the best horseman I know, rode him and said I would be fine, and showed me what to do with him, so I DROVE that horse from here to kingdom come, and he listened to every command I gave him, STILL I couldn't get on his back.....I was AFRAID.

So today my son came out to trim all the horses and he wanted to ride... So we saddled up Shotzy and Buddy... He said he would ride Shotz, but I told him just take Buddy for a ride first and I'll work Shotz a little.... Well I told Jeff It's time, help me out here...First off I made Shotzy bow his head and we said a little prayer:) and then I got on him, first with my Jeff  holding the lead rope, leading me like a kid.... Then I gave the ok to unhook him!!!!! About this time I was feeling a little like the Chris Ledoux song, you know the one about riding the mechanical bull, the part when he says " go ahead and turn her on" lol...Well it was amazing the bond that horse and I have... He did everything I asked of him, backed up like a prince and everything... Then Mick came riding up on Buddy and he just watched for a minute, and then I got the "good job mom"... Don't know why that was so important, but it was:):):) So today was the first day of ridding my Shotzy, but I assure you it won't be the last.... I've made a vow to give him 30 minutes at least 4 days a week... I'm posting the pictures even tho I look horrible and NO MAKEUP!!! But it was a GREAT HORSE DAY!!!!! and there is nothing better then A GREAT HORSE DAY!!!!

So I ask you, what are you fearing???? and what are you going to do about it??? Remember it never hurts to say a little prayer first!!!! I am one happy girl, smiling from ear to ear:):):)